Simple Musings

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Coloring inside the lines

I have always had a tendency to want to categorize life into small neat packages tied up securely with a bow. All things seperate and accounted for. All things organized.

I have even tried to compartmentalize feelings. Time to be happy or sad. Angry or calm. I suppose this is so I can know what to expect and plan a reaction. Be just the right amount of angry and no more. Spend a bit of time experiencing sadness and get on with it.

The flaw in this type of thinking is, of course, that we simply cannot always control our lives. Planning such things is setting myself up for a big fall. Also, this approach takes the life out of things. When operating in this manner, I don't feel the full effect of happenings and emotions, good or bad. Sometimes it can be very hard to "allow" things to just happen. What happens if I don't get that fairy tale ending? Ah, that place called Fantasy Land!

Real life is just plain messy sometimes. Maybe we don't like it, but we have to deal with it. We get sick, broke, lonely, frustrated, disallusioned. That is just the way it is. The lines get blurred no matter how hard we try to hold steady. Nor will we always get to finish the page before we have to quit.

I have been guilty of saying, "I will do this or that." "I will be so and so." These things simply may not be in my life's blueprint. Sometimes there is really no way of knowing this until I have tried and succeeded or failed. A life lesson. And I will never stop learning whether I want to or not. Life just keeps throwing the book at me!

Even when life is going along smoothly, I have to remember that everything fits together to make the whole picture. I don't just "eat". I plan a meal, shop, prepare, eat, clean up, feel well or not. I can't just clean the house. I have to figure in the fact that other live here and have their own space and that it should be treated with respect. Dirt need to be kept to a healthy level. Things need to have organization so that they will be easy to find. Furniture and other objects need to be placed with care to give us more peace of mind. Life evolves and revolves.

So, what to do? Good question. Taking one day at a time is an obvious answer since it has been said over and over. That is easier said than done. The Buddhists practice "being in the moment". This is a great exercise that actually does work when I can push aside all of my jumbled thoughts. Breathe in.....breathe out....... Really simple. Well, not exactly, but worth doing.

So, how do I satisfy my "stay inside the lines" fetish? Maybe I should just get a coloring book!

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

I have a secret. I just love to hang out clothes. I even get anal about having all of the socks together, the tee shirts together, and everything even. I dill-dally around and take as long as I can. (honestly, I have been known to wash clothes just so I could hang something out!)

I stop and look up at the sky for a while. I listen to and watch the birds. I glance over at the garden (and smile). I come up with some really great ideas while pinning underwear to the line. Something very basic about that, I think. I notice things that need to be done outside the house (and inform the person in charge. :-)

Puppykins always helps me, too. It is ever so helpful to take time out to find her and keep her where I can see her. This is her favorite squirrel chasing time. Did you know that squirrels can laugh? Hah, you can't catch me, don't think you can! I would not have known this if it weren't for hanging out clothes.

I catch up on the neighborhood news while I am shaking out towels to add to the line. Honestly, I didn't know that.......really???. (I'm not one for spreading gossip, so you'd better listen close the first time........)

One request: When I die, please dress me in clothes just off the line. I don't really care what it is as long as it is springtime fresh.

Monday, May 02, 2005

Simplicity Revisited

Why is it that by the time you have figured out the game that they change the rules? Now, I know that simple living doesn't change nearly as much as does life in the fast lane. Wait, maybe it really isn't "them", just maybe it's me.

Since embracing the simple life, I have been planning and plotting my approach. Lists, ideas, lists of lists and lists of ideas................. I have filled pages with ways to simplify life. I have arranged and rearranged. Grandious plans for solar living, recycling, eating well have made their way to paper. So what have I accomplished so far? I have this tangled web of ideas on paper and in my mind. As usual, I have gone overboard trying to get it right.

So, this leads me to believe that simplicity is definately a state of mind. What is the new news? Today's headlines: " Middle-aged Woman Finally Gets a Clue "
Somewhere in the deep south, a woman claims to be an expert when it comes to living the simple life. Yada, yada..............

Ok, moving on from the comics section.........Where on earth did I get the idea that I was simplifying my life? I know that simple doesn't equal easy, but why make it harder that it really is? Instead of searching for perfectly simple recipe, why not toss the cookbooks?Why should I keep searching for the easiest way to clean it, if I can just get rid of it? I could keep shuffling money from budget category to category, or, I could just not spend it. Revolutionary ideas, one and all, right? Well, maybe they are for me.

Hmmmm........ I think I will go alphabetize and file my lists............OMG, wait! I have a shredder!!!!